I can practise day by day, my magic tricks, just to see you smile.
Strum my guitar, sing out loud to you, just to keep you entertained.
Go around the world, if i'm rich, to get you all the things that you like.
Even let you go, seeing you leave, for you to be with some other guy.
The only thing that I CANT, is to see you SAD.
But for a man who loves that girl, it's hard not to be jealous as she gives no certain answers.
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He's in doubt.
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always reminding myself life can be too short,always lifting myself when there is a chance.Because i give a try at almost everything
always ended up being stuck somewhere.Feeling lost at times, makes me wonder where to go next, what to do next.I think alot,i dont want to be lost, i dont want to get lazy, i dont want to be waste another 1 second of my life.and that is exactly why i am doing tutorial now, LOL, so dam hard la finance basket. no wonder i think life is short, im dealing with 2-3 points up there, jajaja. It is never too late now to start! Life is too short, get a grip.
Monday, October 29, 2007
lectures jotted down,
pictures taken,
notes recorded down,
pieces forming now.
headache la, go sleep already.
Nani ar, such coincidence, i was at that exact same place you went know, hahahha, sorry i cant help much, you know im a complete idiot at these kind of stuff. dont sad dont sad, be nani tomorrow kayy..
everything's going crazy these days, i need to get into this mood for my performance, arrrr really worried i cant deliver the songs well. simple plan-crazy, story of the year-anthem of our dying day, OMG, both songs are so hard, god. give me the strength! hahha.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
do you ever...
... look at your watch and not know what time it is? that when someone ask you straight away, you have to look at it again?
... wonder when it's all day wednesday, but you keep thinking it's a thursday all day long. And next day, you're normal again.
.... find yourself walking into one of your rooms and not know why you are in there for?
...been talking to yourself and sombody comes in the room and you have to act like you're singing? and hope that they know theres a song with "who does she think i am, some kind of asnfoasnf...?"
...picked up a bag you thought was full, then wheee, only to raise your hands so high up in the air?
...tried to tell somebody there's a dirt on their face, and they just seem to cant find the right spot!
.... when walking up the stairs, you were sure that was one extra step, but you just raise your leg up and got that "oh oh" feeling?
....fall asleep in a late afternoon, woke up in the dark and not know what god dam day it is?
.... rested your head on the pillow, and when you close your left eye, the clock seems to be on that spot, but when you switch to your right eye, the clock seemed to move?
the little things that we share, that brings us together.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
hahaa, so it's my first time following the malay peeps for Hari Raya, super fun balls. Great company, nice gathering, nice conversations (though mostly in malay, aku satu china) lol, and not to mention free food, free drinks AND FREE ANG BAO! hahhhaaa.
So Wen hao and Rui hong came over my place and picked on every corner of my house, lol. messy la messy la, whatever la. hahahaha. Then out of sudden dunno why, all so emotional hahhaa, macam the night at the beach, just with different group, again, HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL hahhahha!
I gotta say this october is the best month ever in my life. EVER, got to know my friends more, ALOT MORE actually, got to see through some of them as well. Erm, realised my thinking-too-much-problem is beneficial yet harmful. 2 sides. jajaja. Then there's the upcoming gig, hope we're well prepared, and not fall sick on that day (fingers crossed). School has been great, finally i can settle down and concentrate, French is the bomb! hahahaa. love french or should i say francois, LOL. Love school for almost every possible thing that could happen. I love my life now, let's just keep it this way for perhaps 3-4 months more! please!!! NOTHING SHOULD CHANGE NOW!
hahaa anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEDRIC! enjoy your mos night, get drunk yeah!! hhahaa, Ced's a bastard, but a funny one. though sometimes irritating, but most of the time annoying. okay that didnt sound good at all HHAHHAHA. AND THANKS khal, nani, liana, sue, fahreeq, rahman, rahman's gf, zul for letting a chinese in your house! hahhahha! BABI!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Act cute No. 1
Act cute No. 2Arh, gotta love finance and gotta work hard on marketing management! soooo technical! cant wait for french on thursday! fahreeq learning soooo fastttt baskeetttt WAIT FOR ME LA!
Monday, October 22, 2007
At least part of me, at least my height, at least my phone, at least my body language, at least my voice, at least my broken smile, at least my crappy hairstyle, at least my eyes, at least how i show my magic tricks, at least how i always forget things, at least my watch, at least the way i make you smile, at least the times i spent with you, at least at least at least.
Planned to live life like there's no tomorrow, who knows so many obstacles coming up my way, just like how i must make my short legs longer to jump over the hurdles. What else can i do, other than waiting, to see all the truth behind the covers? Haiyo, if i can, i would like to tahan for a few more months, than perhaps my sincerity would show, but what can i expect? 2 sides, acceptance, or plain siansation? hahaha. it would be fun though, either really the ending, or forever and ever, lol. far and beyond! jajaja. pardon me, but i know angel's gonna be on my side one day! and the day after the one day and the day after the day after the one day and forever and ever! hahahhahaha.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
I dont know whats wrong. All i know is you can pull the trigger and blow my face off, or you can push that gun away. It's your decision to make, and just for you to know, i'll work hard and i'll be good, lol. hahaha, people keeping distance, people avoiding, why not just let me know whats happening? now looking back, i can more or less put the small pieces of the puzzle together. i didnt know my memory can capture all these nonsense sia, hahaha. dammmmmOut of a sudden, i feel that chinese songs are much more in-depth and meaningful than all the junks i've been hearing hahhaa. I WANNA WRITE A NICE CHINESE SONG! hahahaha, and improve my chinese as well! Gotta go do my tutorial for EFMA tomorrow! Essentials of Financial & Management Accounting.My tutor is a grandma, who compose music, ends every sentence with r, and a freaking funny primary school star award system for class participation. hahahaah! dammmm cute. okay gtg now BYEBYE!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Wilson said that this month was the best for him coz he got everything he wanted, and i agree totally. So i ask myself.Can we make this last forever?
Thursday, October 18, 2007
So this was the picture we took in under some HDB in chinatown, lol, tons of aunties uncle walking past while we placed the camera on this hand railing of the stair, pathetic right? hahaha.
and someone has got alot to say about this photo, hahahaha! thanks ar! lol.
Hahahaa, so it's wilsons birthday today, was suppose to meet 7pm at ps, but end up 7.30 at china town, lol. Decided to spend our dinner at this chinese restaurant. We went in because of certain factors la hor? lol, erm, once we stepped in, look at the menu, nick and i was wondering if we can just eat at some coffee shop lol, like not very worth it. hahaha. after discussing, all of us had $18 bucks of buffet. So halfway through eating, we decided to give a speech before giving wilson his present. So then, after Ben said finish, Nick opened his bag to get the present.
AT THIS VERY MOMENT, wilson said "AIYO, i know what you all are giving me already la, so obvious, everytime ben say psp,psp" then we're like huh? (act blur) hahhha, then nick passed the plastic bag to wilson, inside, there's a shirt. Then wilson is like, huh? oh, okay lor. hhahhah, macam disappointed. His sian face is priceless LOL, then finally we passed him the PSP SLIM, then he's like WOAH! i really thought u all have me shirt sia! FUCKERS! hahaaha, then he just stared at the PSP box, can see his eyes all red, with tears. hahaahha! fucking hilarious balls.
We sat in the restaurant for like close to 2 hours? then finally got out and went home, jajaja, quite a day, feeling kinda sian as well, has my smoking addiction got all over me? gasps,
CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW'S EVENT!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I am FLYING today, and so is Wilson i bet. HAHA!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Nick setting up camera, and me playing with my suspenders haha!
So 2nd day of school was pretty good, no little boy tricks, and got to be serious in class. concentrated more in school today. People worrying about groupings, people wanting to be in groups, hah, how straightforward. it's all good. And like hello? figure doesnt mean anything la.
So after school, went to Outram Park Mrt and met wilson ben and nick to jam. The place is called L-Cube, never been there before but it looks good on the brochure. What makes it special is that there is a mini stage in the jamming studio, and it's really spacious, great place to get our stage presence right. haha, so we had trouble finding the place, walked past like 5-6 streets and realise there's alot of foreign girls there, prolly prostitutes, dressed as hot as ever getting ready to party or something. haha, ben was drooling. And we finally found the place after 30 minutes of walking, cant blame ben for not finding the place, it's really kinda hard to notice. Need to take off our shoes, so ben and wilson and nick went up faster than i do, then wilson shouted "come gary, FASTER". Quickly ran up the stairs and BOOM, it's really huge man, 20 bucks an hour for this kind of room? way better than $23 zai studio man! (our usual jamming place). Quickly tried the bass, and it's really sucky, that guy decided to get another one for me, and it's still as sucky, the pick-ups wasnt good. So, everyone got ready.
We started sound-check on Crazy-simple plan. which we're gonna perform. and it doesnt sounded good, and then went on adjusting our stuff, after half an hour, the sound didnt change, so we figured, Zai was a better place to jam, but, since we cant do any NICE sound here, why not just rehearse our stage presence, hah, then everyone started to play and move along, dammm funnn. haahaa. So when we jammed about an hour plus, the sound finally got better, no idea why, but yeah just better.
So, after jamming, we decided to MAKAN! yeah. chinatown babe, looks like hong kong in every angle haha, but before eating, we decided to take some band photos around there, and just random photos around la, hahaha will upload soon.
Okay, sorry to waste your time reading this NO SUBSTANCE entry. hahaha. GOOD NIGHT!
Monday, October 15, 2007
First day of school was okay, after 6 months of doin nothing, i have to keep telling myself to concentrate in class today. It's really hard, but i have to, i set this goal that i want to accomplish. I dont wanna be the sit-around happy go lucky guy anymore, im changing already, jajaja. yeah baby.Yesterday, i was flying. Full of anticipation for school, only to be knocked back into square one today. Perhaps it's just myself i have to overcome, people playing tricks on me, so what? i can just ignore them and do what i wanna do. But you know, it just gets so hardddd, it's like im pulling myself away from my target. It's so sad isnt it. Whatever it is, i'll see what i can do, and i'll try, but i cant promise.
Hahah, just being random and drew that thing. arh! forgot to add in my mole, hahaha! And yeah, I have decided to work hard in studies and imma find a job, true enough, i worked hard today, and i found a fantastic job. Going for interview on Saturday, everything i do, just to make my parents proud.
OKAY! Another new day tomorrow! lets make it happen huh Zacgary? huh? I'm MAKING IT HAPPEN MYSELF!
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Acoustic Night by the Beach. 12th October 2007, a date to remember.
First thing we did, was to makan!
" I swear Kan-kong best!, chicken wing only second best lor"
Vodka Pear, Marlboro light, Chivas
At that very moment
With Big Freindly Giant, (click on this pic, because i really look good.) JAJAJA
Drink, Drank, DRUNK
Compare Nick in the pic just above this and now, LOL
Elleness
Montfort boys, Messy
Bid FarewellSo, like how we planned, the night by the beach! drinking, smoking, guitar + singing, woohoo. super cool night with Ben,Basil,Nick and Wilson, hahahaha. and i shall elaborate on it.12th October 2007, a date to remember. So i woke up in the morning, got up, dota-ed, watch some movies from movie6.net, and was suppose to meet AJ and ruihong to go AMK hub to shop. Then last minute, i have to collect Vodka from Keith at YCK Mrt, so i cant go, too rush. SORRY! jajaja. okay erm, so after taking the vodka, went to nick's place to chill for a lil bit, then we went city hall to meet up with ben and wilson. I was carrying like alot of things la, my file, my guitar, vodka + 2 sprite. LOL fucking like im moving house. okay moving on.So we reached east coast at around 8.30, immediately went to the food place and bought $8 sting ray, $8 sotong, $8 kan-kong, $10 chicken wing, and all paid by me LOL, fucking 70 bucks gone in a day sia... LOL. but nvm la, consider it a treat cause i got my pay cheque, jaja.okay, so the first thing we found a nice place at the shelter, packed out our stuff, jumped straight into the food. I SWEAR, THEY HAVE THE BEST KAN-KONG, fucking shiok boy. hahha, so after finishing the food, we got on the guitar and played for a while. enjoying the beach and the breeze, woohoo, shiok boy. And so, Wilson and I decided to go Ah-pek style, smoke after dinner, LOL. so Ben Wilson and I went to this bench just by the beach to take our ciggs, jajaja, by the way, Nick and Basil doesnt smoke so, hahha. Wait, now thinking back, i think i did 12 ciggarttes in that 12 hours, jajaja, i am so dying. Okay, so after that, Ben brought out the "laughing gas", tried that for the first time hahaah. The laughing gas just kinda "freezes your brain" and you somehow just cant control your upper cheeks and your eye, and your lungs are like a lil weird, just makes you laugh like mad over nothing LOL. OKAY, so erm, all these are just the PREPARATIONS, yeah preparations, the real show is just gonna begin from here. hahaha. So, before Basil came, we decided to try on the Chivas and Vodka Pear. and well, Chivas didnt taste so well, but Vodka Pear + Spire IS THE BOMB MAN, fastastic babe. So the few of us just drank a lil here and there, sometimes pure vodka without the mix, and Nick got so high LOL. his trademark is that PFFF thing going on with the mouth lol, when you see that, you'll know that he's high. jajaja, then everyone was okay execpt Nick, and this was when Basil called. So me and nick walked to the Jetty to meet Basil, THE REAL SHOW IS STARTING. And so Basil came, then we started play 007bang and the multiples of 7, loser drinks of course, So we played and played and played and played for like an hour+? AND BEN DOESNT WANT TO STOP, so im like okay lor, you guys wanna get drunk fine, LETS PLAY! hahah. played for another half an hour or so, and i decided to stop the game, i can really tell all their face change already, starting to bloat up, not only the face, even the fingers are bloating up, yeah that's how sick we played. LOL. Nick just keeps laughing at everything, Ben's just like "EH KEEP GOING LEH, THIS KIND OF GAME CNANOT STOP ONE" hahaha! We played finished the whole vodka pear and all of them was drunk already, so i hid the Chivas near the beach so that they would stop asking for it, seriously ASKING FOR IT. lol. Actually i wanted to drink more, but whose gonna take care of these drunkards right? haha! Yeah and then, everyone was like dam high, so dam happy, laughing about everything, then out of the sudden, everything changed. Imagine having to take care 4 high happy drunkards, it's already alot of trouble huh? feeding them drinks to piss off the alcohol and stuff, IMAGINE, HAVING TO TAKE CARE FOUR EMO GUYS MANNNNNN. Emo-ed for 3 whole hours LOL, yeah picture that please, at least pity me LOL. I shall not elaborate more on this, highly confidential LOL. So after all the scenes, cleared up the mess, arranged everything and put 3 of them to sleep, left me and wilson. Then we talked about highly confidential stuff, top secret LOL. and really at the very moment on the bench by the beach, i really wish you were here. And just chat chat chat, eh? 6am alraedy. hahhhaa, then, Ben and Basil woke up, joined me and wilson for the stroll by the beach, rock sliding and stuff. I guess we really got a deprived childhood, we took sticks and stuff it up the hermit holes and tried to catch the crabs out. HEY HEY, we're still young okay? hahaha, and i must say, Basil is the best, he lured out 2 crabs, though they ran away in the end LOL. hahha. Pretty fantastic night, gotta be the best out of these 5 months, yeah not 6, cause *cough* never mind. OKAY, SO HERE'S A MESSAGE TO YOU GUYSTo Basil : Fuck la you, seriously the best at catching crabs la, talking crap all also number one. Please la, try to control your voice volume next time, but i dont think you will, that's your nature la, HAHAHA. We like you for who you are, you know, when we're around you ar, nothing gets boring one know, your mouth just keeps on boom boom boom blah blah blah, lol. never got bored one, bbbbbbbbuuuuuuutttttt really la! sometimes a bit too loud hahha!.To Ben : DUDEEEE, BFG, big friendly giant, dont worry la, like you said, if you remembered lol, that everyone has their own problem, even goh geok tong or whoever shit got their own problems, just know that we will be there for you, just like how we will CALL YOU when we got trouble la, you will FUCK their great grand mother and all right? hahaha. Anyways, i bet people will see who you are, just a matter of time. And to end this off, we get the message now Nick is your best friend okay? hahahaha, you said this like 8 times or what LOL. To Nick : Mr. ppffffff guy lol, you are hilarious la, got so dam high laughing like crazy, LOL. Your Momma's story really touched me la, you na bei, want to make me cry only. lol. Really la, without you i dont think this band will make it. AND, just want you to know that you have a like the best family in the world la, dammm lucky kid, with 3 M's. daMMM! hahaha, yaya dont get drunk again hor? lol. dont worry la, you'll take alcohol better next time like me LOL. i want to get high also cannot. HAHHHAHAHTo Wilson : Fuck you, what suicide suicide. seriously, if you suicide ar, Nick will go slap your attached head if you land properly lol, and i will still put the dam cigarette in your mouth i tell you, stuff the whole pack in your mouth nigga. If u die who will be shorter than me in the band? Who will smoke with me in Buangkok, Who will set up my romantic date set-up for me. Basket you, LOL. Dont worry la, everyone's got their own fucking problem, be it financial, family, personal, or whatever shit, confirm got problem one. HAHAHHAAA want to die also wait till 24 ma, get flashlight play first then die la? LOL. k-i-d-d-i-n-g.Okay, just want to end this off. Alcohol somehow triggers your emotions, letting you be open and like let all your emotions out. Like a roller coaster ride, down low, to high up, way sad, to way high, once in a while you just need to let yourself go, releasing all you got. The stres you're in, the problems you have, even the dammm annoying big secret up your ass for like several years. and Friends are the best companion, Family takes you through your first 1/4 of life, then friends takes you through the other 75. Treasure your friends mate, all i can say now. However, never forget your family, just a sentence of "i love you mommy" can make their fucking day, so why not just LEARN to say it, even if it's once in a month. yeah, im just kinda learning that, my family's all so strong, they dont need i love you's but still, i guess i'll just learn to say it then.Sorry if this blog's kinda boring at the beginning, i havent got much sleep, and imma continue sleeping now. SCHOOL IS STARTING IN 2 DAYS! RE-ORGANISE ZACGARY!!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
and yeah, Elleness' first gig's gonna be in TP, 31st October. And then followed by Zai studio, 11th November. We have been practising hard, and erm being serious in what we're doing. I'm really feeling the band now, though we have certain disagreement here and there hahaha. Yesterday's jamming was awesome, great sound, great moves lol. nick's coming up with all these funny moves, fun to watch LOL. AND BEN"S MOVING AS WELL!. woohoo. hahhaa. dont think i cannot see though i face the curtain most of the time haahha. good good. so we went to catch Resident Evil Extinction, which i've alraedy watched it on movie6.net. LOL. i was stuck there at the website considering if i wanna watch. Zac 1 : Should i watch?Zac 2 : The quality's not good, this kind of show must watch in cinema!Zac 1 : But i dont think im going to movies anytime soon.Zac 2 : then i'll click the play button for you. And so it is, went to the cinema at the next day, LOL. And so, the typical Saggitarus' active mind's working again, was wondering about stuff before the movie started. hah. I've been sick for like a week already? ever since i've stopped working, i've been staying up late dota-ing LOL. thats probably why i guess. Today's gonna be a busy day, 12pm meeting AJ and Rui Hong to Amk Hub, then prolly coming home to sleep aruond 4? then 7pm to east coast for acoustic, drinking, smoking and chilling session throughout the night with ben nick wilson bona basil. dam. guess im breaking my rule for tonight, hahahaha. Alright, gotta dota now, before Amk hub, ACTIVE MIND!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Life's gonna change in 4 days, back to studying. I love TEP, though most people thinks it's boring, im gonna miss the special time we spent together. watching movies, strolling back home at night after gym, organising events together, acting in presentations, hahhaa, great fun. thinking back, if there's no SPT, i wouldnt see the world the way im looking at now, wouldnt know more about the people around me and definitely these 6 months has been mostly disappointed, yet there are times where im felt really blessed. Thank god for TEP, im much mature than before.Back to studies in 4 days, hmmm, no doubt giving all out, and i hope i can get a part time job earning 2-3k per month. that is, if i can cope and balance between work and job. I'm aiming high for these coming 6 months. I really wanna see how i can cope with stress and balance my life around. jajaja.alrightttt, gotta go dota now, and still learning on the protocols of blogging hah! sound soon!
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
hahaha, here comes the new masterpiece of a december baby, ZacGary. The new creation of the changing personality nature in Saggitarus, one chapter down, and the other unfolds. Is Zacgary gonna make it? or is he gonna crash and burn, stay tune everyday to find out. jajaja!.
Changed my friendster blog to blogspot, as i figured i cant link people, nor can i have songs on my blog, so why not give it a change. Forgetting about the last blog entries and move on. Throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the great escape! hahhaa. heard this song like 10 times today while going out with AJ and ruihong.
So, the three factory graduates decided to shop with their cold hard cash from the factory. So erm, we went to Bugis street, then to Bugis Junction, City hall, Peninsula, Funan IT mall. and guess what, as expected from a saggitaurus of being a spendthrift, i did buy anything. yeah baby, while AJ spent like 130 bucks? and ruihong around 60. hahaha. no idea why but, just didnt feel like spending. and omfg, to end off the day, after eating the KFC and some chinese delicacy in Funan, we went on to Swensons for the chocolate fondue. I was already so dam full and had to take more stuff in. After the 26bucks fondue, i was totally FULLLAA. had to rest like 30 minutes in there before walking out haha!
So erm, read Nani's blog and she's so sweet la k, everyone, go take a look! i linked her. She had a message for almost everyone la, v. sweet. jajaja.
So erm, i finally realise the Saggitaurus part of being too sensitive and getting hurt easily. I use to be like, "uh wtf? where got?" but now, i can feel it right into my bones" haha, sometimes i just think too much la, never get hurt or anything. thinking about all kinds of scenarios like what it would be like if i were to see her holding hands with him and that they saw me and i saw them. hah, what would i do huh? Prolly just show no emotion and stare in plain air, if they were to say hello to me, i would greet back and then pack my stuff and leave straight away. jaja, If not, just pretend nothing has happen and move on. stuff like that fills my head like once in a while lol. No choice, active mind of december baby!. jajaja. alright, the new Zacgary gotta need his own space to sort out his life now, peace to all!
