On this very last day of Year 2008, it's time for self-reflection and also what is awaiting for me in Year 2009.
Year 2008 is the best year for me in my entire life.
Never in nineteen years have i been working for something i want this hard.
Though they didnt turn out what i expected, it was still nice to have that experience.
Attachment was really an eye-opener, refreshing experience.
Doing projects had been tiring, but yet fun and i never get tired of doing mostly because of the companionship and something intangible.
Well, this year, i screwed up a friendship, and its still in that awkward status right now.
Oh wait, it's two i guess, but i wouldnt consider the latter as a friend, its something more.
Well, family-wise, i changed pespective towards my mom, still trying to do that for my dad.
which is really relaly hard. heh. i'll try still. same thing goes to my brother.
I know and have identified the main stressors in my life.
Learning more about the homeostasis in me, i should really start to look at things differently.
Will work hard for love. It was just today that i stepped back and realise where things were going. And noticed that not everything i thought was good came out well, it backfired pretty much actually. Nonetheless, i'll not give up.
Thinking about my next step of life is army. I really regret and regret and regret not being able to focus on studying in year one, wasted one and a half years rotting. Hearing people talking about choosing different Uni's to decide really makes me feel so wasted. If only i had someone there to influence me earlier, guess we'll be on the same track now.
If you'd ask me whats the major influence of my life in adolescence stage, this will be my answer.
It's you. and it's going to change me for the rest of my life.
I guess what's said is said and what's done is done,
so all i want to say to you now is,
Thank you for being part of my life.
